I am back for 2010=)

I am back people.

I am thankful for what has happened during 2009. It is definitely not a easy journey for me. Today I can close this chapter of 2009 with tears at the same time joy =)

As many of you know I left RP at the start of 2009 wanting to pursue a course closely related to photography. At the same I really love photography but didn't have the courage to go all out instead I chose course that are somehow related. But actually deep down I didn't trusted God for what I want instead I choose the easier way. So in the end I didn't get all my choice. I even tried to sign up for private school but application was turn down because MINDEF don't allow anymore deferment. That period of time my heart is filled with disappointment, simply so tired of life and simply lost.

I actually wasted close to 6 mth of my time. Facing pressure from family and friends, deep down my life is turned upside down.

I even stopped taking photos because I doubted myself. Until June I went for a mission trip in Thailand. From that point of time I see lots of things that the Lord has done, I see suffering of many people that God cares for, I see the greatness of God among their difficult moment and also witness the great love of God that is being poured out to the people there. Is a turning point from there onward because I learn to live in Him and learn to feel for what He feels. Life is more than photography but is to live for Him and have a heart of God.

Eventually when I came back from the trip I am still struggling to trust God totally and even demanded things from Him. Came to a point in life in July, I actually went to the park to seek God, I was reminded of this story about the prodigal son, at that point of time I knew I am just like tt prodigal son that God loves. No matter what I have done, He wants me back home with Him; see Him face to face that is the heart of a father that is being revealed to me. I can't help but cried in the park. Because of that moment I decided to trust God for every single thing in life.

In august I still remember how the Lord tested me with the amount of money I have in the wallet that I wanted to buy equipment it was about 216 dollar, it was then during a service He asked me to surrender all of it, I asked why and He said do you want me more than your money. At that point I started to tear because I desire more Him more than money.

I manage to find a job in a production company and beforehand my mum bless me with 2.2 K worth of equipment =). It is really really by the grace of God through brother in Christ of that company I am being accepted. Wedding photography has been always what I wanted to do for the Lord, to show His tender love. Things been falling in place for me when I trusted God and I know I am called to be in the marketplace.

Amazing I went Meta in 2009 year end. I know I went this camp is not to be set on fire but to let God deal with me and also to learn. This camp is amazing, throughout the whole camp God been speaking to me regards to my direction in life as well as calling. Simply it is to follow Jesus and His will be done.

For 2010

I want to continue to take nice pictures=)
To serve God in mission field before I go in ns
To fulfill His command as a full time worker in His kingdom
To deal with my emotion haha!
ALSO READ bible daily!!!! Haha!

Yea! Also to simply just love God=)