how precious is this moment

Wrap-up 2009 | Singapore Reportage and Wedding Photographer

2010-02-04T15:33:00.000+08:00

Wrap-up 2009 Singapore Reportage and Wedding Photographer: "There’s only one life to live, why spend the youthful years wondering what if?
Here I am, trying everyday using what I know I can grasp, letting the adventure take off, most importantly, enjoying the ride."

Looking at the amount of risk she take really inspired me=)

James Nachtwey on the Impact of Images | Singapore Reportage and Wedding Photographer

2010-01-29T11:44:00.000+08:00

James Nachtwey on the Impact of Images Singapore Reportage and Wedding Photographer: "In closing his talk, he again noted that photography, along with political will and science, is at the service of humanity. Photojournalists, he said, aim their pictures at people’s best instincts."

Pictures as they are | Singapore Reportage and Wedding Photographer

2010-01-29T11:42:00.000+08:00

Pictures as they are Singapore Reportage and Wedding Photographer: "Journalism has got to touch people, not remain as airy comment hung up in the air by a thinker who sits behind the computer"

Being a photographer is it a routine job?

2010-01-29T10:54:00.002+08:00

Being a photographer is it a routine job?

Yes it will be a routine if you just stay behind the lens and snap because it is nice.

It won't be a routine if you stay behind the lens, observe and tell a story. That is a photojournalist.

I wei yi, want to do it good and beautiful.

from fear to faith

2010-01-13T15:05:00.002+08:00

Whenever I think of this coming mission my heart is always excited at the same time fearful. I believe this fear is not from the devil but myself. At times I have problem trusting Him at the things he called me to do simply doubted His voice and His strength.

If this going to happen in Thailand I am going to miss out chances that He want to use me to do things for Him. Is an honor to serve God but how am I going to even do it when I don't even obey.

Is the word faith that I need to work on I guess many of us too. Just a little faith will do and it can actually move a mountain.

So as I prepare my heart, is also time to be faithful to the little He calls, is also time to bring words into actions, is also time to let the love of God sink deep into my heart, is also time to be still and know that He is God.

Be still and know that He is God.

a quiet sunday

2010-01-13T14:46:00.003+08:00

During Sunday as I do my qt and also preparing my heart for this mission. This time round I talked less, listen and pray more. To really tune in into His presence is so difficult as I have to discern which is my voice and His voice, that alone took me close to 30 mins.

Sometime that was reveal was the presence of the Lord as a form of rain. As believer we needed this presence else our life is as good as dead. In the past people have to burn sacrifices at different stages to have this presence or even hearing from God. Only the high priest is allowed into the holies of holy, where God and human are kind of face to face. If the priest is unclean most happen he will be stuck dead.

So how much do we treasure this presence of the Lord today? How much does it worth to you?

God wanted His presence to be felt among the lost and He using people like us human to do this mission. God purpose always wants His children back to Him to enjoy this very presence in His home. This presence is the breathe of life without Him we are dead.

The presence of God is He Himself and we know that God is love. Even before going into the mission field we need to go with this presence of the Lord else how are we going to witness as a believer? We need to hunger for this presence in our life even more else how are we going to proclaim God love? We need to live our life in the spirit and be in tune to this presence of the Lord.

This very presence is given to us where we meet God face to face. Because Jesus Christ He died to wash us white as snow, blameless before God that why today we are able to come into His presence. So people do you see how precious is this gift? and also how much we should we hunger for God.

I pray that even before the team go into this mission that the Lord has called and prepared for us, we should be living our life hungry for this very presence that God gave it to us because God love us.

Going Mission with a Heart of Christ

2010-01-08T15:35:00.004+08:00

I am back!

People I have signed up for gen12ii a mission trip with campus crusader. During the march or early April I will be up to Thailand for 10 days with Radion agian.

On my previous trip many life been touched during the trip and personally for me I been touched to see how God move among the people that he cared for and how God love them with the unfailing love. God show himself strong and almighty=)

Yea this time round I am going up to fulfill the great commission. As a vessel for God uses, as He fill me and use me I know is not just serving anymore but knowing His heart as He use me. I seriously don't know what is going to happen at this trip, but all I know something that makes me tear is the presence of the Lord, this presence need to be felt among this people we reach out to.

Last trip i was too bothered about how God is going to use me or even think that He won't use me, but this trip that I am going, no longer having this thoughts in mind. Great people in the bible, David, Paul, Moses ect ect ..... They are just only human yet God use them because these people they have a heart for God and serve Him with all their heart because they know God is worthy.

As before the trip all I can do is to prepare myself. So pray, pray because I need Him and want to be dependent by His spirit for all things that He called us to do.

I am back for 2010=)

2010-01-02T15:10:00.002+08:00

I am back people.

I am thankful for what has happened during 2009. It is definitely not a easy journey for me. Today I can close this chapter of 2009 with tears at the same time joy =)

As many of you know I left RP at the start of 2009 wanting to pursue a course closely related to photography. At the same I really love photography but didn't have the courage to go all out instead I chose course that are somehow related. But actually deep down I didn't trusted God for what I want instead I choose the easier way. So in the end I didn't get all my choice. I even tried to sign up for private school but application was turn down because MINDEF don't allow anymore deferment. That period of time my heart is filled with disappointment, simply so tired of life and simply lost.

I actually wasted close to 6 mth of my time. Facing pressure from family and friends, deep down my life is turned upside down.

I even stopped taking photos because I doubted myself. Until June I went for a mission trip in Thailand. From that point of time I see lots of things that the Lord has done, I see suffering of many people that God cares for, I see the greatness of God among their difficult moment and also witness the great love of God that is being poured out to the people there. Is a turning point from there onward because I learn to live in Him and learn to feel for what He feels. Life is more than photography but is to live for Him and have a heart of God.

Eventually when I came back from the trip I am still struggling to trust God totally and even demanded things from Him. Came to a point in life in July, I actually went to the park to seek God, I was reminded of this story about the prodigal son, at that point of time I knew I am just like tt prodigal son that God loves. No matter what I have done, He wants me back home with Him; see Him face to face that is the heart of a father that is being revealed to me. I can't help but cried in the park. Because of that moment I decided to trust God for every single thing in life.

In august I still remember how the Lord tested me with the amount of money I have in the wallet that I wanted to buy equipment it was about 216 dollar, it was then during a service He asked me to surrender all of it, I asked why and He said do you want me more than your money. At that point I started to tear because I desire more Him more than money.

I manage to find a job in a production company and beforehand my mum bless me with 2.2 K worth of equipment =). It is really really by the grace of God through brother in Christ of that company I am being accepted. Wedding photography has been always what I wanted to do for the Lord, to show His tender love. Things been falling in place for me when I trusted God and I know I am called to be in the marketplace.

Amazing I went Meta in 2009 year end. I know I went this camp is not to be set on fire but to let God deal with me and also to learn. This camp is amazing, throughout the whole camp God been speaking to me regards to my direction in life as well as calling. Simply it is to follow Jesus and His will be done.

For 2010

I want to continue to take nice pictures=)
To serve God in mission field before I go in ns
To fulfill His command as a full time worker in His kingdom
To deal with my emotion haha!
ALSO READ bible daily!!!! Haha!

Yea! Also to simply just love God=)

Broken Spirit before Him

2009-12-08T13:46:00.002+08:00

Been quite a long time since I last bloged. Been too tired of life and been just too tired to simply do anything. Maybe due to many dissappointment and discouragement in life.

As I do my devotion today here is something I want to share

Today as I worship this familar verse came into my mind as a form of voice Psalm 14:2 - The LORD looks down from heaven on the entire human race; he looks to see if anyone is truely wise if anyone seeks God

The Lord asked me, if I will be the one that seek after His heart, even when people around me are not being true to Him. I being to tear and eventually say yes

However another verse here Psalm 51:17 - The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart

I coming before Him broken knowing that without Him I am seriously nothing. As I worship I was reminded of people in hui say neh village about how much they need Him and how much they need to come before Him broken.

Today is simply a very peaceful and also joyful=)

Honouring God

2009-11-27T18:47:00.002+08:00

Thank God is Friday and is a holiday.

Rested well and putting work a side.

Today also watched the dvd call flywheel. Was touched and impacted me.

I also worship and prayed.

Today my only prayer is that I will come to Him broken and in need of Him. Hence my worship will be pleasing and honorable to Him. Also that in whatever I do in my life be it photography, busniess and relationship I do it to honor Him by summiting all this before Him.

Oh Lord be it control.

Rainy Christmas Feeling

2009-11-20T00:16:00.002+08:00

Been raining a lot this few days. Weather been rather cooling.

My heart also went calm with such dreamy weather.

Just want to thank God for such a day He created for me.

Indeed be it sweet,bitter,tough,frustrating,irriating=p moment, is still a day that He made. A reason to smile.

living a life with purpose

2009-11-16T23:49:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be having a pre wedding video production and I will be assisting=) although i am only a photographer I really want to learn to observe every aspect.

Anyway a little update of today. Today is rather a roller coaster ride, my emotion went up and down, anger stiring in my heart. Is rather a challanging day. While leaving the office today this song call ' we are the reason' played in my head and I actually sing along. Indeed we are the reason He suffered and die.... if I am in my room singing this i think i will flood the whole room. All this little things that the Lord said to me matters a lot.

=) I end of with a meaningful day with a lesson learnt.

Ps 13: 5-6 But I trust in your unfailing love I will rejoice because you have resuced me. 6 I will sing to the Lord because he is good to me.

Yup the Lord is good to me. my only desire is to love Jesus more and more each day. Is kind of hard here.

goodnight!

Intresting Morning

2009-11-09T21:32:00.002+08:00

The moment I woke up this morning then realise that I actually wore my contact lens to sleep. After rolling like 20 min then I managed to drag myself to the bathroom to wash up myself. Was kind of late for work today so decided to just take a cab down, while waiting for cab I actually approached this young man to ask if he want to share cab with me since we are going at the same direction.

This young dude around his age of 21 while on the way I actually have a short chat here and there. From there then I knew that he is actually a secondary school drop out and having no sense of direction in life, I actually see great potential in this young man. However the Lord somehow spoke to me about his broken family and life. Well I also don't what to do about it so I just decided to just say good bye to him.

As the cab pass by geylang road, I was reminded there was a time my friend was telling me about the back alley in that area and how many broken life waiting to be touch by God.

I just hope that I can be that photographer that touches life be it capture reality or selling my possession. I don't know how.

But is really a great morning.

A Well Rested Day

2009-11-07T00:12:00.003+08:00

Buying dinner for family as my mummy wasn't at home and also help to wash plate too. So didn't went out to punggol park to spend time alone wif God.

However I rested well seriously.

Beside rested well also having more time to sort out my thinking and my troubles in life.

Something to think about what does it mean to really lay down your life for your friend even when the surrounding does not seem to be in your favour. One thing I know Jesus lay down His life for the church. Still dunno haha..

I thank God for the rest and whatever good or bad happens.

2009-11-06T01:21:00.002+08:00

Many things been happening to me.

Well I am still surviving.

I know it does nt really matter, because He is my all in all.

A Inspired Thoughts

2009-10-25T16:26:00.001+08:00

In a few mins time I am leaving the office and head towards for a shoot.

I decided that i don't want to go through motion, I want to express, I want to shoot with meaning and joy.

Though there is equipment lack, but it does nt matter, I will try my best.

Oh Lord be with me=)!

Loving God with all of your heart, soul, mind AND strength?

2009-10-25T14:27:00.002+08:00

Loving God with all of your heart, soul, mind AND strength?

This is the standard of loving Him, seriously I can't do it. God know we can't do it why still give this commandant?

I guess in God eyes loving Him mean to lay down our life totally for Him, dependent on Him only. All I can think of is David now, why is he called as a man after God heart?I guess is because of his Heart for God, even though He sinned , He still choose God wills and repented. Even when he is young, He trusted God totally.

So that why there is this saying 'may you fall even deeper in love with Jesus every day', I guess is a everyday process to CHOOSE to love Jesus.

Love is a heavy word, the most easy to use and the most easy to be abused. That why true love comes with a price. A price of suffering because you know He worth more than Gold.

I guess God made actually this commandant possible=) Because He first loved us and showed us this perfect love on the cross 2000 years ago.

Is not that He have missed out anything asking us to love Him, He gained nothing by sending His only cross to the cross. All He want is us as children of God to love Him as a Father, to be more and more like Jesus. To love Jesus it come with a price=) but we know He worth more than Gold.

Understanding The Heart of God

2009-10-21T17:14:00.003+08:00

Throughout the days was very distracted and drained out.

Didn't eat my lunch as I don't felt like it and simply just want to hear clearer from the Lord.

Sometime woke me up is actually a touch of love from the Lord, it actually stir me up and make my heart soft towards Him. Agian I am being reminded of what is more important in life.

Philippians 3:7 - I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done

I know I will never be perfect enough, no matter how much work I do, how much time I spend in qt, how much time I spend attending church or cell group is never enough. Because one thing I know my God love me and perfected me through the faith in Christ=) To my personal conviction is that loving God is not about doing the things of God but instead it should be an act of worship, understanding the heart of God.

The Love That I can't Comprehend

2009-10-20T14:47:00.002+08:00

以弗所書 3:17-19

17 使基督因你们的信，住在你们心里，叫你们的爱心有根有基，
18 能以和众圣徒一同明白基督的爱是何等长阔高深，
19 并知道这爱是过於人所能测度的，便叫神一切所充满的，充满了你们。

Ephesians 3:17-19

17 Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. 18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. 19 May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.

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I don't want to blog much about it, just want to tell you guys, I still don't fully understand this foolish love of Him, but it simply broke my heart whenever the image of His cross came into my mind.

Images Filled With Love

2009-10-14T00:14:00.000+08:00

A photographer shouldn't just shoot what their eyes is looking at, but rather shoot what their heart is thinking of.

Thank you Jesus for anything that happen today.

Pure As Gold

2009-10-11T17:39:00.000+08:00

Quite discourage recently due to some expectation that I can't met. Been pushing myself, been wanting to do it good.

Sometime just felt that I am being stuck and can't seem to move on.

Kind of frustrating.

But I know because of all this I go through, I will be a photographer that go through fire and come out pure as gold.

Attended service last week with the shagged out face and drained body. God is good, He fill me with His love that substain me once again to carry on doing the work.

Be Strong and Courageous

2009-10-09T11:20:00.000+08:00

Received my latest pes status and is a B ... Well was pondering about life in ns and start to feel fearful and sian of it.

Today as I am reading about Joshua, was encouraged by how God actually keep reminding them be not be afraid, for He is always with them, also how the Lord actually, how the Lord part the Jordan River. Joshua actually got a choice not to do what God has told him, but yet to chose to do wherever God commanded him to do.

I know NS going to be a tough time, but surely I know the Lord is with me and He will go before me parting the river that I need to cross. That is if I chose to do it.

Joshua 1:5 (NLT) No one will be able to stand against you as long as you live. For I will be with you as I was with Moses. I will not fail you or abandon you.

Joshua 1:9 (NLT) This is my command - be strong and courageou! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.

Now preparing myself before I go in, and Lord make it through for me, I will go wherever u ask.

3 of Oct

2009-10-09T10:38:00.000+08:00

3 of Oct was Andrew and Stella actural day wedding.

This wedding I had is quite different from the previous 2, this I was much relaxed because I had enough sleep the previous night=) I told myself I want to shoot moment not just snaping thousand of photos and pick the best out of it. I enjoyed the wedding and also learning to appreciate the very emotion that is let off during wedding. Wedding day is a big day because is the day they start to live as one, the day they share their joy, the day they share their blessing=)

Meaning In Every Pictures

2009-10-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

Every pictures tell a story.

Today as I look through a photo blog and one question came into my mind, that is 'the why question'

Why take this shot? What is the meaning of this shot? after that who is the main focus and why?

Kind of have the urge to shoot now=)

I want to be beyond a photographer, I want to tell a story in a beautiful manner.

Learning to Appreciate and Enjoy Moment

2009-09-28T09:46:00.000+08:00

Had my 2nd wedding and it left me questioning how can I improve myself, how can I capture it with the right feeling.

I just read one of my favourite photographer's blog, most of his entry filled with joy and excitement.

Beside mastering technical part, or even getting familar with wedding culture I guess there also a need to enjoy them or else it will be empty shot.

Every wedding is a joyous occassion, from the early morning make up to the last hand shake, therefore there is a need to learn to appreciate this moment because it is really hard to come by for the couple, a need to enjoy because this is the day that they share their joy. Is really an art to master and this require being sensitive and good attitude in our everyday life.

This 2nd wedding I had I felted really tired due to lack of sleep due to many commitment I have, I guess I need to sort out what is more important for me. Because I can't have everything.

Thx God for all this=) is all belong to Him.

The Air I Breathe

2009-09-24T23:05:00.000+08:00

The air I breathe today belong to the Lord, I live because He breathe in me 24 hr a day.

I am dead tired.... going to rest early tonight. Tomorrow will be a great day ahead because I believe.

A Lesson of Patience

2009-09-24T00:09:00.000+08:00

Feeling dead tired due to the lack of sleep.

However I just live my days running and running and didn't really take awhile to rest, even is resting I am still thinking of the world.

Really a fast pacing world, time seem to be running out always. Especially when we trying to be successful or even just earning to survive day by day. It totally drain our energy off. Eventually when one is close to their death all this are slowly strip away, so what is really meaningful then?

Being patience and not being anxious is a powerful tool. As in it help us to always find the true meaning in doing things. It help us to think and understand. Because today is assist in a school concept shoot, and basicly I am doing my own things and neglect the actually shoot procedure, I am not scolded but was actually mentored and this set me thinking the whole day why I am not being scolded. I found the answer is actually patience.

With patience we tend to live differently from this world. As in slower in pace, even though is slower but it always help one to understand life and what is really more important in life. Because of that patience that person gave it actually make me learn a lesson of supporting and being focus. So what is more meaningful? Actually simply just being patience so that we won't miss that moment in helping a person.

In Deep Thoughts

2009-09-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

At home right now. But unsual stuff happen to me is that I actually put aside my work and watch TV. Kind of like my rest? Haha! Instead of going back to work I am actually in deep thoughts after watching a drama series about family, something struck me is the word love.

Indeed is something so fragile but worth fighting for in life even it require throwing away the word pride which is really diffcult. Because love is something can't buy,and true love can actually melts and fill emptiness in one hearts, I said that because I personally withness it.

As i think further my hearts begin to felt softer and comforted, because it just remind me of the agape love that He been pouring in my life. I still remember the day how He actually melts me and that leads to me making the greatest life decision which is to follow Him.

I decided to change blog because I really want to start experiencing life in a different way. Different way as in really open my eyes big big and look at every moment that is so precious be it good or bad.

I really need to grow after my 1st wedding as an assistant I ask myself 'how much do I actually understand all this'. My honest answer is I am not sure. As an photographer it require maturity, all this come by journaling life with a purpose, moment by moment which is everyday.